Showing posts with label cancer. Show all posts
Showing posts with label cancer. Show all posts

Friday, May 6, 2011

Sayonara cancer!

Zach is all set up for his LAST EVER SCANS!  Back when we were first told Zach had cancer, this day wasn't even on my radar.  It didn't exist since we were getting by one lab/scan/chemo treatment at a time.  Well, on June 20, 21 and 22...the days will be here!

June 20th - appointment with Dr. Barfield/physical - find out where we go from here

June 21st - Labs and MIBG injection
June 22nd - CT and MIBG scans

The 22nd is when I will have my hands full.  An MIBG scan requires that Zach lay absolutely still for over 1 1/2 hours.  No shrugging shoulders or sneezing or anything.  Sedation is our only option for this scan since it is so long.  I'm not looking forward to this.  Each time he's been sedated (which is so many I've lost count) he has a harder and harder time while on the medications and then coming off the meds.  I hate that part.  It's like my sweet little boy is turned into this aggressive and mean terror.  Not his fault, but its so hard to watch and comfort him.  Hopefully this will be the time they will get the right combo of drugs to work for us and there will be no 'T-Rex Zach' in sight.

I'm willing to put Zach through this again without as much angst, because I know this will be it.  The last scan.  This will be the last confirmation we'll get and then I guess we'll do lab work yearly or so.  Wow.  Can't think of anything else to say about it right now.  As it gets closer, I'll be eating more Tums and having my moments, but for now, I'm ecstatic to think that we are separating ourselves from neuroblastoma and everything bad that goes with it.  Sayonara cancer!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Big Z really is getting big...he's turning 4!

This is from Zach's Caringbridge page: 

WOW – I can’t believe I haven’t had to update this page since Christmas.  Incredible feat for our family and I couldn’t be happier.  This update has nothing to do with any check ups or scans or anything else that makes us have long days at Duke.  Get this.  Zach. Is. Turning. 4. (April 11th to be exact!).  This is HUGE!  For Zach, for me, hell…for the whole family!  Our whole family was part of Zach’s treatment and without them; we would have come out of this looking a lot rougher than we did.

I’m in awe of how fast time has flown and the satisfying fact that we are celebrating his 4th birthday is not lost on me.  I go through this each year since his 1st birthday was ruined (in my eyes) by cancer and chemo.  I would love to have a huge tail party with a pig and the whole nine yards, but I just started work again and can’t swing that just yet.  Maybe later.  This Saturday there will be a T-rex cake, ice cream and hot dogs…and Zach will be happy.  And that is all I can ask for. 

A couple of weeks ago Zach, Mama and I went to DC to bring awareness to childhood cancer and speak to Congressional members from our state about maintain funding for fiscal year 2011 and increase it for 2012, co-sponsoring both the Creating Hope and Survivorship Acts, and joining the Congressional Pediatric Cancer Caucus.  We made an impact.  At this point in time, I’ve gotten written confirmation that Congressman G.K. Butterfield has signed on to maintain funding for this year and give 32 billion to the National Institute of Health (NIH).  He has also joined the Survivorship Act, which will conduct research on survivors and all the nasty side effects that come later in life from our kids being treated with adult cancer drugs.


Let me break this down for you, because until I was in DC receiving my training, I didn’t know this stuff.  The NIH will spread that money out to different groups such as the National Cancer Institute (NCI).   The NCI then doles out different amounts of money to different cancer types.  For next year we are hoping for more than the 4% we have currently.  This money is spent doing research and other stuff “they” deem necessary.  Still not sure who “they” actually are. 

I am thrilled that we were able to go and advocate on behalf of our kids.  And people with cancer in general – kids and adults.  Cancer is spreading like the wildfires that have started this Spring and it shows no signs of slowing down.  The best way to slow the fire down, or completely stop it, is to do research.  We need research.  Simple concept.  Let’s get it through our Senators and Congressmen’s heads that cancer research is not as they called it, discretionary spending.

  You can help spread this message right now, from the comfort of your desk chair.  Look up your Senator and Congressional members for your state/district and email them.  Tell them your personal story of how cancer has affected you and your life and then tell them to do the following:
  1. Maintain funding for fiscal year 2011 and increase it for 2012
  2. Co-sponsor both the Creating Hope and Survivorship Acts
  3. Join the Congressional Pediatric Cancer Caucus (if they are not Senators!  Senators are not allowed to join caucuses).
Hope this didn’t sound too preachy, but I want everyone to know exactly what they can do to make a difference.  So now you know.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Hello? Do you hear me up the Hill?!

So I decided to take Zach to Washington DC for our first Childhood Cancer Awareness and Advocacy Day last week.  Boy did I underestimate what I was in for.  First off I was completely caught off guard with my emotions when I arrived at the information session on Wednesday.  For some reason I thought the group of parents participating would have their kids with them - I was wrong. 

Our family seemed to be in the minority because Zach had survived his battle with cancer.  Good thing I had packed my tissues, because after listening to several speakers talk about their kids who had passed and why they were doing what they do now, it was tough to hear.  Then I thought about what a wuss I was sitting there crying when I still had my kid 3 doors down playing with the 1 or 2 other small survivors that had come to DC.  It was time for me to suck it up and pay attention to the detailed statistics the speakers were telling us. 

Stats such as pediatric cancer research being considered a "discretionary program".  Say what?  Since when did finding a cure for cancer become optional?  Maybe if their kids had cancer they would see it differently - but that isn't something I'd wish on my worst enemy(if I had one). 

We reviewed 4 main reasons as to why we were in Washington:  1.  To ask our Senators and Congressional members to maintain funding or fiscal year 2011 and to increase funding in 2012.  We asked this because each year 13,500 kids are told they have cancer and more than 40,000 kids undergo treatment for cancer each year.  There are more scary facts that we laid out to our representatives too.  The impact of not maintaining for 2011 and increasing for 2012 is that kids with cancer will not have the best treatment options and will suffer from the lack of research.

2.  For our Congress members to join the Congressional Pediatric Cancer Caucus and be a Congressional champion for legislation benefiting children with cancer.  All Congressional members need to be part of this caucus since it is bipartisan, creates awareness and educates our members.  If we as parents to a child with cancer didn't know this information, how do we expect Congress to - unless we tell them?

3.  We need Congress to cosponsor the Creating Hope Act to encourage drug development for pediatric cancers and other rare pediatric diseases.  This legislation has bipartisan support and does not require an appropriation.  This Act was introduced the morning we hit Capital Hill and there was no better timing.  This Act doesn't require any money from taxpayers - at all!  What it does do is generate market incentive for drug development through a "golden ticket" - a priority review voucher for pediatric rare diseases.  Under this program, a company that develops a drug for pediatric cancer and receives FDA approval for that drug also receives a voucher.  That voucher comes with rights to a faster FDA approval for any other drug (like another heartburn or allergy medication), which results in the drug getting to market 4 months earlier.  These vouchers are worth hundreds of millions of dollars...I think that may be the incentive these drug companies need to help our kids.  Whatever works people!  I happen to think this is an ingenious idea and wish I'd thought of it myself.

4.  We also asked for Congress to cosponsor and adopt the "Childhood Survivorship Research and Quality of Life Act" formerly HR2109, which is scheduled to be re-introduced later this year.  This one is a biggie because now that Zach has survived childhood cancer, he faces many late side effects.  3 out of 5 kids who survive cancer suffer horrible late effects such as secondary cancers, muscular difficulties, infertility, heart failure, kidney damage, hearing loss, memory loss, permanent low immune systems, develop autoimmune diseases and a host of many, many more.  As a direct result of research done up to this point, we've got loads of kids surviving each day.  This means we need research done to help the survivors.  Right now we're at a standstill - I've survived cancer...now what?  We need to figure out "what" and allow our kids to grow old and change our diapers when we're as old as...I don't want to think about what that age might be. 

Thursday morning came and as I found myself to be nervous...no time for that - got to get my big girl panties on and get this show on the road!  We rush to get to the hotel in time to make the shuttle (which we make only by seconds and have to ask them to hold it while I go park and run through the parking garage like a mad woman with an empty stroller.  Zach and Mama got put out on the curb so they wouldn't break a sweat.)  We arrive at Capitol Hill and start our hike to the first meeting of the day.  We heard a 12 year old boy do a speech about how he survived cancer 2 years earlier and was here to help us sway our Representatives to see our point of view.  This kid was amazing.  No other words.


We move on to our first Senator meeting with Richard Burr's office.  This meeting was so weird.  It didn't really seem to have a 'start'.  The aid we met with, Jennifer Nardi, met us and just sort of looked at me to begin...and I choked.  Had no idea where to start.  Where was that lady in our group who said she'd start and end for us in the meetings?????  She was late, that's where she was.  I managed to get through a jumbled start and thankfully another set of parents picked up the message for me and we were able to get all our points on the table.  I got the impression Jennifer Nardi was not interested in our group or our message.  However, we made her sit there and listen anyway.  The other family in the pic is Christy Griffith, Eve and husband Matt.  You should really check out Christy's blog, Eve VS Wilms - it's crazy good.  Eve had a different cancer and was treated with the same chemo drugs as Zach, as was a older survivor of leukemia (29 years survived!)...see the need for more research yet? 

Then we were off to a good lunch of chicken strips, fries and cheese pizza.  Those were some good chicken strips - worth all that walking back and forth all day!  We went to Congressman G.K.Butterfield next and met with his aid, Meredith Morgan.  She was full of energy and I felt like we really had her attention in this meeting.  She took notes and even asked questions we were able to answer.  Made me feel a bit smarter up on the Hill.  *Update*  Meredith sent an email letting me know Congressman Butterfield was on our side.
'I really enjoyed meeting you all today.  Thank you for taking the time to come all the way up to DC.  

I passed the information on to Tonya, our chief of staff, regarding what we discussed and she is going to review it tonight. Also, I read your children’s stories and I am so sorry.  I can only imagine how difficult that is to go through for everyone involved. 

I know our office is behind funding the best cure for pediatric cancer.  The one piece of news I already have is that we are in support of funding NIH at the current level.  We just signed a letter today in support of funding NIH at $32 billion (the President’s proposed FY 2011 was at 32 billion but as I am sure you know ,there has been no final vote for FY2011 by congress. FY2010 for the NIG was 31 billion) .

Please know that our door is always open.'

I have since written her back reiterating our message and thanking her for the support. 

After this meeting, we had some time to kill so we took our time getting to Senator Kay Hagan's office.  I took some random pictures during this walk...
  
 What's the 1st thing you notice in this picture???  We were lucky enough to be stopped twice that day for the President coming and going down the street...whoever this guy stops wouldn't be what I call lucky.
 I really took notice of all these damn stairs around Capitol Hill...maybe it was because I had a kid in a stroller to lug around all day...what do handicapped people do here?  I finally found a ramp at one building at guess what...it lead me to the base of some steps. 
 This certainly explains a lot about people in Washington...
  Zach's new friend and partner in crime, Eve.


So we arrive at our last meeting of the day, Kay Hagan's office, and we're prepared to deliver our message to Senator Hagan...but she is a no show (she had to run home to NC).  We ended up meeting with a competent aid named, Tracy Zvenyach - who is also a nurse and had a great working knowledge of what we were talking about.  Another Mom that was there brought an email from Senator Hagan's office to attention and promptly told the aid that the letter was wrong - all the info Senator Hagan wrote about was for adult cancer - not childhood cancer.  We hope the Senator has been informed of the error and will now cosponsor our Acts so she'll be more informed in the future. 

We were very fortunate to have an adult survivor of leukemia.  She has survived 29 years and actually had been treated with the same drug Zach was, as well as Eve - and they all had different types of cancer.  She shed TONS of light on why research is needed for the survivors too.



The kids were wild by 5pm.  This poor girl looks like she was ready to make a break for it when we left!  At the end of the day I think we really made an impact on Capitol Hill - for better or worse, we made one.  I ask that each and every one of you write to your representatives and ask them to maintain the budget for the rest of this year and to increase it for next year.  We need the research.  Simple as that.  I'll update about responses I receive as they (hopefully) come in.  Thanks for your support and encouragement.  We need it!

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Signed, sealed and delivered

It's all set up.  Me, Zach and my Mom will be going to Capital Hill March 16-17 to participate in this year's Children's Cancer Awareness and Advocacy Day.  We're going straight to the horse's mouth (our elected officials) and try to get money for pediatric cancer research.  Pretty cool that we get some training and then have meetings set up with people that have the power to change things.  I'm gonna make sure Zach's voice is heard at these meetings.  His future depends on it.   

Did you know that a survivor of childhood cancer 40 years ago received the same chemo drugs that kids get now?  40 years and no change...something's gotta give people. 

We're also participating in the Triangle's first ever CureSearch Walk.  Every penny puts us one step closer to fund the trials that could lead to less harmful treatments and ultimately cures.  Put your walking shoes (or flip flops) on and come walk with us to help ensure Zach and every other kid has a healthy future.  **PS - you can sign up as a virtual walker too and help even though you can't be here in person. 
 
Event ScheduleRegistration/Check In
2/26/2011 9:00 am

Opening Ceremony and Walk
2/26/2011 10:00 am

Event Location
American Tobacco Entertainment District
Downtown Durham - Center area (1.5 mile walk)
318 Blackwell St.
Durham, NC 27701

Registration will begin at 9am, a short opening ceremony will start at 10am and then we walk (approximately 1.5 miles)...upon return we recognize teams and celebrate together.

The opening ceremony consists of two mini ceremonies - the first is a balloon release to honor those children who have lost their fight with cancer, and the second is a medal ceremony to recognize children in treatment and adults and children that are pediatric cancer survivors.

The children in treatment and survivors begin our walk by carrying a banner that says 'These Are The Reasons We Walk' with names of all the patients participating and names of individuals that teams are participating in honor of who have had childhood cancer.

In addition, every person at the walk receives a bandana representing their journey with childhood cancer.
- Kelly Green = I am a SURVIVOR or am Walking on behalf of a Survivor
- Lime Green = I am in TREATMENT or Walking on behalf of a child in treatment
- Mint Green = Walking in MEMORY of a child
- Dark Green = FRIEND or Corporate Supporter

Parking will be at any spaces near the Tobacco Campus

No pets are allowed at this venue and at the walk - per site rule

Walk Route map will be provided via email to participants and team captains. The walk will be approximately 1.5 miles and will begin in the center area of the campus buildings.

Inclimate Weather Plan - TBD - we will communicate via email to all registered participants.

Activities - the committee is organizing face painters, a DJ, and other activities for the walk.


SEE YOU THERE!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Grenades, playgrounds, and preschool...Oh My!

There was a time where I thought this day wouldn't happen for us.  I let the poison of cancer rob me of thinking happy thoughts of Zach growing up.  2008 was by far the worst year of my life because of this.  I had to make myself get pissed at cancer to move past all those negative thoughts.  I've had to do whatever I can do in order to make cancer just go away.  And it seems to have worked.  Zach started preschool today.  This morning the simple act of packing his first lunch made me so ridiculously happy.  I can see all sorts of amazing things in his future now and I love it.
Ta-da!  I'm at school :)


We started the weekend before by preparing for today.  Went to Target and got the coolest Scooby-do lunch box you've ever seen and some juice boxes.  Also went to the park on Sunday to enjoy the break in bad weather.  I think every other parent in Cary had the same idea.  The park was filled to the brim with kiddies and their parents.  I sat down at a picnic table to finish lunch (Wendy's!) and watch Zach.  Turns out I had sat down next to two lovely grenade moms. 

You know the type.  Perfect hair, perfect made-from-scratch lunches with everything organic.  Hmmm.  This is when I wish I had my own "grenade whistle" from the Jersey Shore cast.  Would have come in handy.  All I would have needed to do was blow it and Zach and I could have ran to another part of the park where it was safe.  I could just see this innocent little lunch going so wrong.  One mom ignored me completely - even turned her back to me in case I didn't get the picture that she wasn't interested in talking to me.  Interesting.  The other mom didn't ignore me, but I wish she had. 

She made everyone eat  grapefruit slices before they could have a cupcake.  I watched her closely to see if the kids did as she told them too...maybe I could learn something here.  The little girl spat out that grapefruit all over the other pieces and shouted that she would not eat that 'stuff'...now it's getting entertaining.  Grenade goes off!  Perfect mom proceeded to scold the girl (who wasn't her child) and launch into a extremely detailed story as to why she shouldn't spit out food on everyone else's.  Wow.  I had to stop myself from starring.  

Before she turned to me and started scolding me for starring I hustled Zach outta there, but not before finishing our not so organic fries and chicken while she watched.  I can only hope Zach isn't in the same class as these kids.  Turned out we didn't have to worry this morning.  I didn't recognize any of the kids so we're all good for now. 

We get to work on Valentine's Day cards for next week when Zach gets home and I'm so looking forward to this with him.  I find myself looking forward to a lot these days with my Zach-man.  He's gotta wear shades his future looks so bright!  Oh yea!

See you guys at the CureSearch Walk on Feb. 26th! 

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

scanxiety with no scan?

Even more changes this week.  My job was a bust and didn't happen, but we found a new home so we'll all be together again under one roof.  Some things just happen for a reason I guess.  At least that is what I keep telling myself.  I contacted Duke about Zach's December visit and was informed they are not doing a scan this time.  To say I was thrown for a loop isn't correct - I was blindsided by this new information and not entirely happy with it. 

To a parent of a cancer kid, scans are not your best days by any means, but the scan itself represents something solid that I can see for myself that the cancer is still gone.  Blood work and urine tests just aren't enough for me...I've got to have proof I can see.  On the flip side of that, Zach doesn't have to fast and drink any nasty contrast or have any IV's this time.  I'm really happy not to have to deal with all that crap, but I still want something concrete to prove to me that this stupid crap is still gone and my baby is good to go.  I know I'm a hot mess right now, but it is what it is.  I'm working through my fears and trying to do what is best for Zach.  

Not having another CT scan is good for Zach - it means no radiation, no hunger, no IV pokes, no throwing up after meds, not such a sucky day at Duke - you get the picture.  It also means that Zach is far enough out from his treatment plan that he only needs another scan next June and then none for the rest of his life.  I can't even wrap my brain around this concept of not having this routine anymore, as abnormal as a routine it was, it was still our routine...weird.  So I've struck a deal with our oncology team that we'll continue to do urine tests, blood work and a physical exam when at Duke, but no scans until June 2011 and then no more ever unless there is reason.  The urine is a huge deal for Zach since that test alone is better than looking at his bloodwork.  Duke sends his pee cup to the Mayo Clinic for testing and as longs as it is within the normal range, we're good to go - no neuroblastoma. 

Finding all this information out so close to Thanksgiving has made me really think more than normal.  So this year I'm thankful for many things, but above all, I'm thankful to have a happy and healthy boy on my hands along with an awesome husband and great family.  Happy Thanksgiving ya'll! 

Sunday, November 14, 2010

The countdown begins...

So lots of changes are happening in our lives these days...I have a part-time job back in Cary (woo hoo!) and start Tuesday.  Nowhere to live yet, but its a work in progress and we'll be staying a few days with our VERY GOOD FRIENDS while we look for a new place.  Hoping to be in a place of our own before Thanksgiving...it was making me sad to think that we wouldn't be able to put out our Christmas decorations this year since we've been staying with family.  Now I'm getting excited again about all being together and happy and having a place to call home. 

At least home for 6 months before moving again!  Past ready to be settled down in a permanent home.  I just want to clarify that we are so very grateful for having such wonderful family and friends that help us, but I'm am so ready to just have a home of my own again.


We've got the toy drive starting Friday, November 26th  - that's right...BLACK FRIDAY!  Lots of good deals, pick up something for Zach's Toy Chest.  It will make your day and theirs when you do this - it is a great feeling to know that you've helped make someones day a little bit better.


Zach is also having his visit to Duke for a cancer check and scan in December.  Not sure on the dates just yet, but will post more when I have that info.  My scanxiety has started without even knowing the dates...I am going to have to start mediating or something to relax myself.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Adult Bibs, Bearded Ladies and more...the fair is in town!

It's official...I am a true blond under the red hair.  If there was something to forget this week, I've forgotten it.  I'm just saying it now - sorry!  To say things have been crazy is a serious understatement. 

Our week started off in a restaurant and since then each time we go eat, I've learned to be on guard of 'weird restaurant happenings'.  So we're sitting at a local joint and this middle aged woman walks by with something under her arm...no biggie at this point.  She gets to her table and whips out two plastic bibs, complete with a pocket to catch food.  You know the ones...like we all used for our toddlers when they were learning to use fingers and/or forks.  The lady puts her own on and then the waitress puts the husbands on for him.  Please do not think I am making fun of elderly people.  I am not.  These were people my parents age, not elderly.  I've really never seen anything like this and cannot stop staring.  I videoed it and would post it if I could figure out how, but it was really entertaining.

Our next eating out adventure took place a favorite brunch spot up in Cary and I swear the State Fair lost it's Bearded Lady.  Usually it is all me that notices things like this, but this time it was Adam.  And boy did he notice.  He actually told me my little peach fuzz wasn't so bad after all...  What a compliment.  I have since seen this lady twice since the first offense.

Our final restaurant adventure was back at the scene of the crime at the local joint in Williamston.  We were deciding on what to have when Zach is suddenly seized by pain and starts withering around in pain on the floor and on my lap.  He can't walk because the pain is so bad.  He tells me between tears that his belly hurts.  Talk about panic.  This kid had a grapefruit size tumor in his belly without me knowing - so whenever he says his belly hurts I am all ears.  Turns out it was an extreme gas attack.  Who knew that kids his age got attacks like that??? Not me.  He hasn't had something like that since he was a newborn so it caught me completely off guard.  I've got a arsenal of those gas drops in my purse now though, just in case. 

We decided not to try anymore eating out after this.  I've more than met my quota of weirdness for the week.  Enough of adult bibs, ladies with beards and gas attacks...

The motorcycle ride, Cruizin' for Childhood Cancer, is almost here and has been planned as best as I know how.  Hope everyone is ready for tomorrow - LOTS going on! 

I am thankful for the perfect weather we are supposed to have and hopeful for a massive crowd to join us at The Pig in Williamston.  Whoever is too far away or can't make the ride - you need to hop on over to Cary and see all the lovely volunteers for our Giving Grill at Whole Foods Market Fall Harvest Festival from 12-6pm.  Both events should be awesome thanks to all our supporters.

See you all tomorrow at one event or the other.  Thanks for making Zach's Toy Chest such a success!  Check out the website for all the details of both events by clicking here.  We're making a lot of kids happy by supplying a distraction in the form of a new toy.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

It wasn't me...

Zach has been blaming everything he does on the 'ghost' and 'monster' lately.  I wonder if this would work for me?  I'd like to see people's faces when I said, "Oh no, it wasn't me, it was the ghost!"  Weird looks are not that uncommon for me, so no biggie there.

I need some good people to step up and be volunteers for me Oct. 23 from 12-6pm at Whole Foods, Cary.  We are having our Giving Grill that day where ZTC will get 100% of all money we collect.  You'd have to serve plates of hamburgers and/or sausages for $5/plate and chat about ZTC - easy peasy.  This event is taking place the same day and time as Cruizin' for Childhood Cancer so I won't be able to make it to the event and force people to buy plates or else...this is where my volunteers come in ;)

Cruizin' for Childhood Cancer is getting bigger and better every day - yay!  Now we have to pray hard for sunny 75 degree weather.  Here is the final schedule of events and times for each singer along with the ride route.  Please be aware that this is an estimated timeline and may vary slightly.  We are hoping to stick as closely as possible to these times.

9 AM-4 PM - Bouncy house, face painting, ice cream, funnel cakes, vendors, live music
  9:30 AM - Sarah Hardison
10:15 AM - Jamie Byrant
11:00 AM - Ride starts
11:15 AM - Michelle Perry
   12 Noon - Dick Feyer
 1:00 PM - Lunch served, Powerstroke


Ride Route: 
Ride leaves Piggly Wiggly, takes 17 South towards Washington
Right on Wharton Station Road
Right on Hwy 264 going towards Greenville
Right on Hwy 30W - to Stokes and stops at Country Mart, 15-20min break.
Leave Stokes on 903 towards Bear Grass
Left on 1001 going towards Bear Grass
Right on Sweet Home Church Road and cross over Hwy 17
Left on Goddard Town Road
Right on Smithwick Creek Church Road
Left on Fire Dept. Road
Right on Hwy 17, back in town to the Piggly Wiggly.
Total miles: approx.70  Total time: approx. 1hr 50min


Thanks to everyone and all businesses that are sponsoring the ride and helping volunteer - we could not do any of this without you!